#MARSocial’s #Author of Year Competition: One Voice Raised: Triumph Over Rape by @Watercolorjen #NYTimes #AMAZON

#MARSocial’s #Author of Year Competition: One Voice Raised: Triumph Over Rape by @Watercolorjen #NYTimes #AMAZON

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Morning

It was a cold morning. The sun was bright, but it wasn’t offering any warmth. Glaring reflections of gold sparkled off the store windows and car bumpers shone with silver light. There were frozen puddles in the brick street. Annapolis’ harbor, was covered in a film of ice. A flock of seagulls circled around the boats in the harbor looking for a spot to make a clear landing. There were a few young people in the cyber café staring at their laptop screens and drinking coffee. Most of the stores on Main Street were not open. The street was deserted except for the trash men who were picking up bags from in front of the shops and a few men working on some telephone wires. Chick and Ruth’s Delly was busy with people having breakfast. A line was forming at the ATM machine.
It was just like every other winter morning in Annapolis.

It was like no other day in my life.

It was a day I had never imagined dawning.

It was the day I would be seeing, for the first time, the face of the man who had raped me 21 years ago.

I could have heard a pin drop when I walked through the courtroom door. I was alarmed at how much bigger the room appeared to be now that it was full of people. It didn’t seem this large the other day. Judge Hackner sat at his bench straight ahead, but he looked to me to be out on the fifty yard line of a football field and sitting way up high on a mountaintop. I was feeling small. I felt I would be engulfed by the space.

The jury turned their heads to look at me as I entered the room. I looked away and my gaze passed over the benches where my friends and family members sat. I didn’t want to look at anyone here too closely because I thought I would get too emotional. I didn’t want to fall apart. My eyes darted to the opposite side of the room and I couldn’t help but notice there were very few people sitting on the benches behind the defendant.

The balance of the room felt all wrong. Physically there were many more people sitting on the left side than the right and yet the floor seemed to be listing toward the right; tipped as if being weighed down by an invisible force toward the defendant’s table. The area around the defense table looked dark and uninviting, but I felt myself leaning into the tilt of the floor as if being sucked toward the shadow that hung there. I tried to straighten myself.

As I passed the seats where all my supporters sat, I was aware of a charged energy that was light, warm, and safe. I walked into this light and wanted to stay there. I couldn’t. I was being instructed to approach the bench where the court stenographer sat. I didn’t want to walk toward her because I would have to pass through a section of the room that was dark and oppressive. I felt dwarfed by the judge sitting way up high. I was being swallowed by the room with its heavy mahogany wood and thick carpet. I felt overwhelmed by what was expected of me. I took a breath and walked forward, being careful not to stumble. All eyes were on me. I could feel them. It was so quiet. I heard only a sniffle or two. The air felt heavy and thick.

I saw his face in profile. He was staring straight ahead with his hands in his lap. His features were sharp; a thin face with protruding cheekbones, a goatee, a widow’s peak, and a receding hairline. His complexion was pale. Way too pale to support hair and a beard that looked to be poorly dyed with inky-black shoe polish, and slicked back with Vaseline. Unnatural. Instantly I understood completely why he’d dyed his hair. I was sure it would soon be very clear to the jury. As I walked by the corner of the defense table, I was careful not to brush the edge. Darkness hung heavily in the air around the three people sitting there. I did not want to pass through it.

“Do you solemnly declare and affirm under the punishment of perjury that the testimony given will be the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth?”

Trice never met my eyes. It was uncanny how, no matter when I looked at him, he was always focused on something else in the room. Maybe his lawyer told him not to look at me at all. Maybe he didn’t want to look at me. I wondered as I looked at him, “Does the face you are born with determine your fate? Or, does the life you lead imprint itself onto you? Do lines etch and features reposition until you look the part of the role you have chosen for yourself? I’m not sure. But I was struck by how his face told the story of his life. If I knew nothing about this man, and had seen him walking toward me, I would cross the street. If our meeting were in a dark alley, I would run in fear.

Each invasion, every surprise attack, and every scream he elicited from a terrorized victim echoed from his eyes. His eyes were light in color and ice cold. What must have once been smile lines in childhood had become twisted and carved into a sneer. His jaw was set and closed tight, giving him an angry look. If he had been a Hollywood actor, he would have been type-cast to play every role of sexual predator that came along. His face was one that conjured nightmares. No matter who he was as a child, his choices in adulthood had made him the boogeyman. He was surrounded by dark and evil-looking shadows.

No matter where life takes her, she seems to always have a camera in hand.
Jennifer Wheatley-Wolf is an artist who loves to work in fabric, photography and occasionally words.
Inspired by color, texture and the unexpected discoveries in the world around her, Jennifer brings her vision of the world to life through her art.   Jennifer and her husband Marcus reside in Virginia.

 

One Voice Raised: A Triumph Over Rape

By: Jennifer Wheatley-Wolf and

Chief Investigator David Cordle, Sr.

Non Fiction

Amazon-Paperback and Kindle: http://www.amazon.com/One-Voice-Raised-Triumph-Over/dp/0615562477/ref=la_B006KJD6RY_1_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1387382225&sr=1-2

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